No I’m not pregnant. But I think I would rather be pregnant than be on this horrible emotional roller coaster that I’ve been on the past several months. Over the past several months I’ve been noticing this pattern. Emotionally I’ve been feeling quite low, getting very depressed, and overwhelmed. I seriously hit rock bottom, and feel like I hate my life. I hate that the house is such a mess and I feel like I’m never going to dig myself out of the mess. I hate that Kyle is almost never home and that he doesn’t make time to spend with me. I hate that I’m the only one that ever cleans anything in our house and the kids literally throw fits anytime I ask them to do anything, even if it’s something as simple as ‘Please pick up and put your shoes away’. I hate that the kids are rarely obedient and act like they don’t like me. I hate that financially we’ve never been able to budget. Kyle is gone so much it’s hard to sit down and look at the numbers and decide where money should go. And he and I have different priorities on where the money should go first. All of these things will press on me all at once and I seriously hit rock bottom. Then within the next day or two my monthly cycle starts. EVERY TIME! Hormones are seriously messing with me! Because after the start of my cycle, things go back to normal, and I can see that even though the house is seriously messy and cluttered, it IS getting better, which happens to be a step in the right direction and I actually get excited as I go through and declutter and purge stuff from my house. But then it starts all over again with me getting super depressed and overwhelmed and hating everything and then within a day or two my cycle will start! So now when I start getting that super depressed feeling I think to myself, it must be just about time to start a new cycle, but it still doesn’t help to be feeling so horribly depressed. This roller coaster is driving me crazy!